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2008/07/20

More about myself

Haha yeah I know this blog is quite boring...but I really don't have much time to do these things, cause, you know, studying always comes first. xD Anyway now I will talk more about myself, lol. Can I type in Chinese?
首先,我是個愛作夢的人,不管是什麼不可能的事都能被我想成真的. 但也常常會擔心..我都只顧著想,從來不會去實現. 哈哈~正在努力改進中~ 其實, 我的夢想有很多,而且一直在變化. 現在是: 等到滿16歲的時候一定要捐血,這是我個人的堅持. (這不算夢想? 算了,隨便), 以後想要從事有關保育地球或動物有關的工作 (我愛動物,而我對地球有種逃避不了的使命感) , 等我夠成熟之後想交一個體貼,聰明又陽光的男朋友 (但絕對不是現在). 嗯嗯~如果要說近一點的話,我想考近TJC或VJC (離我家近), 而且以後想去美國唸大學. 那裡的校舍好棒啊! 去了之後一定也能說一口流利的英文~ 對了,說到英文, 我也希望我英文能說的更好,因為現在講話還是會常常結巴~~呵呵. 每次聽到那些美國人說英文都巴不得想馬上移民去美國,或是搖身一變變成他們, 哈哈. 又在作夢了~xD 另外,我超級愛狗的! 以後如果可以的話一定要養至少兩隻狗,呵呵~ 總之,現在還是先把該做的先做好吧,需要更努力用功才行~那我去讀書囉~! 下次再繼續介紹我吧! =)

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2008/07/05

I love my friends! =D

Although now I'm still feeling lonely and sad, but once I think of you, my best friends, I know that I am not alone. Really thanks for the words and confrontation, which truly helped so much and were so important to me. =) I know you will always be there by my side, supporting me, offering me a hand when I need you. I feel that friends are truly the only one who will accompany me forever. I love you all! XD Please do not worry, I am okay now, I just need some time for now. =) Now I have decided that I will focus on my school work, and only school work, until O Level is over. I swear to myself, haha. I won't let other things bother me, because I know time is running out! >o<

Today I went for a CPR course, which was quite short but interesting. And I had my lunch behind the school with "Jay-Z" haha~! We laughed until like mad, until we couldn't even remember what we are laughing for. XD I love to be around her, I just become so happy and hyper when I am with her! Lol! Friends are the one who always give me energy! And yeah, suddenly come to think of it, I'm really happy that I got 9th position for Sec 3 girls during Cross Country! I ran until I almost fainted, haha. Once again, thanks to Jamie, my new friend, who ran by my side during the whole process, and gave me support. When we were near the finishing line and I had already lost all of my strength, she gave me a push at the back, and I rushed through the finishing line because of it. She could actually overtake me but she didn't, so she ended up in 10th position. This was so moving! Thank you so much! I will never forget that! =D

I think I will end here, and go to do my physics homework, haha. XD

P.S: I don't love him, but I love you, my best friends! =)

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2008/07/02

Will you even notice me if I break down into trillion pieces?

Haix, I feel that I'm such idiot...getting hurt again and again... Refusing to stop, refusing to forget... What am expecting? What do I really want? I don't know...but I know that I truly can't bear being hurt so many times... I can actually feel myself falling in million, trillion pieces... Is this how loving a person feel like? If this is the case, I won't ever want to fall in love again. Never again. Yes, I have lost faith in love.

Yesterday, after reading his message, I broke down into tears... I realised, deep in my heart, he is so important to me... and I can't stand losing him. But to him, I am just a person, yeah, simply a person. Then I realised...what are these all for? All these efforts, wishes, time, tears and my broken heart...what do I get when I gave up almost everything? Nothing. That's what made me cry, crying because I was such a fool, crying because of his words, crying simply because...I think I will never fall in love with anyone again. This is already the second time, and I finally know that I haven't learnt my lesson. Sigh, a day that was supposed to be celebrated turned into the first time I broke down since long time ago.

I wish...I wish...

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