Haix, I feel that I'm such idiot...getting hurt again and again... Refusing to stop, refusing to forget... What am expecting? What do I really want? I don't know...but I know that I truly can't bear being hurt so many times... I can actually feel myself falling in million, trillion pieces... Is this how loving a person feel like? If this is the case, I won't ever want to fall in love again. Never again. Yes, I have lost faith in love.

Yesterday, after reading his message, I broke down into tears... I realised, deep in my heart, he is so important to me... and I can't stand losing him. But to him, I am just a person, yeah, simply a person. Then I realised...what are these all for? All these efforts, wishes, time, tears and my broken heart...what do I get when I gave up almost everything? Nothing. That's what made me cry, crying because I was such a fool, crying because of his words, crying simply because...I think I will never fall in love with anyone again. This is already the second time, and I finally know that I haven't learnt my lesson. Sigh, a day that was supposed to be celebrated turned into the first time I broke down since long time ago.

I wish...I wish...

another sweetest escape
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