Yes, I know I shouldn't be here.
But I'm feeling really frustrated now.
Cause I only manage to finish revising one chapter of SS?
Shit.
It's damn long. And why must I learn it? I'm not planning to stay here forever anyway.
And I can't even say openly that I hate it because....yeah you know.
Anyway....no offence. So sorry. You can just ignore that.
I love history but I never like SS. Don't know exactly why.
People say they are alike, which I disagree.
OK, let's put an end to this. I think I have got the "3e1-too-much-pressure-disease".
LOL. Let's hope I will do better tomorrow...oops, today. ($%@*&#!!)

Fact: I hate blood.
And perhaps scared of it.
No, not that blood, if you are thinking about it right now. = =
It really shocked me.
Anyway I just hope he's okay.
As I do not know him well...I just leave it.
I know I won't be able to help him or cheer him up or anything.
But I really hope he'll be fine....please cheer up and think on the bright side ok....
I don't know why I'm feeling quite worried.
No it's not because of "that", if you are thinking the wrong way again. = =

Ok let's change topic....
Hmm. Since everyone seems to know about this already...
I can type it here, can't I?
I hope he doesn't mind.
We are truly and really friends now.
Plus, I am happy that we are.
In the past, I was trying to get those rumours out of my head.
But now they do not matter anymore.
Yeah, you can say I'm silly, I'm childish, I'm idiotic, I'm naive....
Whatever you want to say. And I know exactly that I am.
But this time, they will not affect me anymore.
As it is over.
I will go my own way.
I will find a way.
And I am mature enough to decide myself if it is right or wrong.
If it is wrong, I will do everything I can to make it right.
So, that's all I guess.
Perhaps these are what I want to say to myself?
Instead of other people.
Yeah, maybe...
So bye, and see ya. Will go to sleep soon.

If you ask me, I will say no, I never regret it.
Now I'm finally giving up.
I feel relieved, happy and sad at the same time.
I really hope we can be friends, until....yeah, as long as possible. I won't say "forever".
I will still be there, as a friend, to help you, to support you, if you decide to turn around.
It will not happen twice though. Just as the both of us wanted.
Continue to work hard for your dream! And I know you will find someone much better than me.
Finally, I just wish you can be happy.

So yeah, I will carry on, happily, with my life.
Bye! =D

another sweetest escape
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