The class outing was really fun. :)
Yup, I have learnt 3 things:
1. I suck at bowling.
2. I'm better than Chee Hui at "wu zi qi"! xD
3. My classmates aren't as "innocent" as they look.. Haha! xD
OMG, I'll miss 4E1. D:

The thing is...
We didn't talk. I didn't really look at him.
We didn't go home together, like last time.
Yeah, I admit, I'm avoiding him.
I'm afraid... If I say something, if I look at him, it will just hurt too much.
That hole deep inside me will suffocate me.
Maybe that's not the case for him. Maybe he doesn't feel a thing.
I know that, long long time ago.
This "friend" thingy isn't working very well for me.
If the only way to stop the pain is to pretend we are strangers, so be it.
I'm just too tired of it.

This was what I was trying to do last time...
But he realised. He felt it. And he asked.
"Are you alright? Are we still friends?"
Pure innocence.
What am I supposed to tell him? How can I explain?
So... That's it. My "stranger" strategy had failed.
And we are friends. Or we "were"?

Shit. I'm not supposed to think about it.
I'm not supposed to be affected by it.
It's a taboo.
If I could block it all out during the O Levels period, why can't I now?

I hope the holidays, being in two different countries, will cool it down.
When I come back, I will be a brand new me.
Just focus on studies. When I enter JC.
I don't want this anymore.
No more.

We are like two planets; although rotating about the same sun, we are so far away, and we will never ever meet.

Like what you've told me. I've finally agreed. I will find someone better than you.

another sweetest escape
7:50 PM